Everpresent Pain

 Waves of pain washed over her. There was never any relief.  Just as ocean waves beat against the shore, thoughts of all the trauma she had endured continued to buffet her. She drowned in the physical and emotional pain that stayed with her always. There was no relief. She could sometimes feel as if there was a pause in the storm. She would be happy. Excited about new things. But then something would make her remember and it would come suddenly like a blizzard. She felt cold. Shivering against the icy fingers of thought that crowded and darkened her mind, she wrapped her arms across her chest trying to feel some comfort against the cold darkness. It never went away. It was like a ghost that would one minute be in a known spot and the next waiting to jump out at her when she least expected it. She tried to move on. 

The grief was still there. The pain of losing a part of herself. A special part of herself. Pain was made worse knowing that she had never been protected. Never protected by the people who should have protected her. 

Pushing against the cold pain that sucked the breath out of her lungs, she pressed on. There was nothing else she could do. One foot in front of the other, her head bent against the cold sharp wind. She pressed on with the pain ever holding onto her.


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